Lately...

i have been through hell and beyond and everyday that i awake is another day, another opportunity. it only proves that i am strong & able to overcome anything if i have been able to overcome all that i have been through in my past. sometimes i really do want revenge, but know that vengence is God's and not mine. however i have learned to realize that life is full of ups and downs, but its all about how you handle situations. the way you handle things has the biggest impact on how everything will end up.

lately ive been feeling like an "outkast". but i have come to realize that is a good thing. its not good to get caught up in whats around you so being the "odd ball" or the "loner" is actually a good thing. most people think its bad to be alone, so many people are afraid of being alone but i have come to realize that its a good thing. sometimes you seperate yourself, be alone, in your own little world, zone out and clear your mind, spend some "you" time. its quite refreshing.

i have definitely found myself in that category. its crazy because this is only the begining of 2009 and i have lost so many friends, ive been hurt, ive cried, ive been upset, ive been confused, i have realized who has been real & who has been fake in my life and i have ex-ed at least 30 people from my list! now i know that inspite of the down times, they are all neccessary because it makes me smarter and stronger. the good times are good, the bad times are bad, but the bad times make it all worth it. so in a nut shell, i see where i belong and im fine with that. its life, you live and you learn... ♥